Un-fucking-believable

Dropped another four-and-a-half fucking buyins today, just in the most brutal way imaginable. Actually for the first time in months, I oversetted someone for a full stack (with a shortstack missing his flush draw for good measure), but still had one of my least lucky days ever. Had AA busted by 9Ks hitting a runner runner motherfucking flush, had TT vs 88 run into quads (my opponent disguised it well, I thought I was value betting for stacks at the end), had 99 vs TJ on a 789 flop (I missed), had JJ vs TT on a 24T rainbow flop (60bb stack smooth-called my flop value bet, left a PSBAI on the turn). The the following hand against a complete donkey moron.

FullTiltPoker Game #5680566352: Table Seashore - $0.50/$1 - No Limit Hold'em - 1:15:06 ET - 2008/03/18
Seat 1: BluRay ($98.10)
Seat 2: gdshaffer ($100)
Seat 3: KissMyAAss ($126.30)
Seat 4: atp874 ($24)
Seat 5: Manard69 ($79.40)
Seat 6: PokerxPro ($100)
Seat 7: Cav36 ($51.55)
Seat 8: RCM52 ($77.05)
Seat 9: watrwedoin ($152.10)
watrwedoin posts the small blind of $0.50
BluRay posts the big blind of $1
The button is in seat #8
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to gdshaffer [Ad Kc]
gdshaffer raises to $3.50
atp874 folds
Manard69 folds
PokerxPro folds
Cav36 folds
RCM52 folds
watrwedoin calls $3
BluRay has 15 seconds left to act
BluRay folds
*** FLOP *** [Qd As 2s]
watrwedoin checks
BluRay has been disconnected
gdshaffer bets $6 <---- I value bet my TPTK as a cbet.
watrwedoin raises to $12 <---- donkey opponent minraises as always when he caught any piece of the flop.
BluRay has reconnected
gdshaffer raises to $18 <---- standard. Fuck you.
watrwedoin has 15 seconds left to act
watrwedoin calls $6 <---- player is incapable of folding.
*** TURN *** [Qd As 2s] [7h]
watrwedoin checks
gdshaffer bets $30 <--- $40 in the pot. Pure value bet.
watrwedoin has 15 seconds left to act
watrwedoin calls $30 <--- I figure my opponent for either a FD or some weak ass ace.
*** RIVER *** [Qd As 2s 7h] [4s]
watrwedoin checks
gdshaffer checks <--- the flush got there, and I'm unsure how much more value I can get from weak-ass aces.
*** SHOW DOWN ***
gdshaffer shows [Ad Kc] a pair of Aces
watrwedoin shows [Ah 7d] two pair, Aces and Sevens <--- of fucking course. My opponent turned his 3-outer and played like a complete fucking retard from that point on.
watrwedoin wins the pot ($101) with two pair, Aces and Sevens
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $104 | Rake $3
Board: [Qd As 2s 7h 4s]
Seat 1: BluRay (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 2: gdshaffer showed [Ad Kc] and lost with a pair of Aces
Seat 3: KissMyAAss is sitting out
Seat 4: atp874 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: Manard69 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: PokerxPro didn't bet (folded)
Seat 7: Cav36 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 8: RCM52 (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 9: watrwedoin (small blind) showed [Ah 7d] and won ($101) with two pair, Aces and Sevens

Compare that with the hands where I won big pots:

The aforementioned overset.

AA vs. QKs. Idiot limp-RR'd me $20 with KQs from UTG. I smooth-called with aces, idiot pushed AI ($90 into $40 pot) on 89J flop. I called, saw his hand, said "if a ten hits I might motherfucking lose it". Thankfully it didn't.

Raise from MP2 with ATo, very weak player from UTG limp-calls. Flop: KT3 rainbow. Opp checks, I bet $8 into $10 pot, opponent calls. Crap. He paired up whatever bullshit K he has in his hand. Turn: 4. Check, check. River, T. Nice. Opponent bets pot, $26.50, I raise him all-in for $54.70 more, he calls. With K9.

Unfortunately the size of the pots that I won go way down from here, but I did have a ratholer limp-reraise me all-in with AQs against my QQ, whereupon I won a $50 pot.

So as I look at my hands, here as always, I see I'm losing stacks in situations that are either pure coolers, or questionable, perhaps marginally -EV spots where I nevertheless have a realistic holding. On the other hand, the spots where I'm winning stacks are situations where my opponents are behaving like complete fucking retarded monkeys.

Never fucking mind that every fucking cbet I make where I don't have it gets raised, and everyone I make where I do have it gets folded to. Shit like that just tilts me so fucking hard. Sometimes it feels like I'm playing against an entire table of superusers, except for the moments where they stack off like complete fucking retarded monkey muppets.

I'm running very, very bad right now. Like, seriously bad. My losing streak at 100NL has now encompassed 20 buyins, or $2000. I'm down $1757 for the month, with basically no bright spots. I have basically no hope left, I feel, of salvaging a profitable month, let alone hitting any goals for lifestyle sustainability. I can't say I'm playing perfectly, but fuck me. I'm not playing this bad. I'm certainly not playing much, if any, worse than I was in the 50k hands in which I built up my $4000 in wins at NL100, and now that I'm back down over half of it, it just...

...I don't know. I'm questioning this whole decision. Maybe I don't have the mentality for this shit. It's one thing to run bad, but when it gets you starting to second-guess yourself, you start making mistakes, and it just snowballs. I have basically zero motivation to play right now.